BADTIMING

so my mom and sis was here in uk about 35 days ago... which was great and nice since it'll be the first i'm seeing them in almost 10 months. i was brought loads of goodies from home including unhealthy lovely junk, healthy lovely soup ingredients (some wormy things...disgusting but absolutely tasty)... and not forgetting lovely goodies prepared by kumah... great stuff..... although i must say most of the stuff brought have already been devoured..... anyways it must be a week since they've left now... they were here for about 30 days... and i only spent less than a week out of home with them, thanks to the perfect bad timing....

so the 1st week, we went to paris for 3days... it was really really fun to be with my mom and sis again... after so long... i miss 'kacauing' me sis... absolute fun... anyways the 1st day spent in paris was a lovely tour in paris... going up eiffel tower, went to arche de triomph... and few other places, then had a lovely french cuisine at a lovely restaurant... absolutely amazing food... seafood platter in particular was amazing... anyways that's that.... then the 2nd day... we went to euro disney in the outskirts of paris.... it was brilliant!! it was really fun.. tho' i must say that disney is great for kids... the roller coasters are not as exciting as i expected it to be.... loads of those characters bouncing along tho'... didnt get to catch mickey but caught donald and chipmunks...hehe... and also sleeping beauty.. or was it snow white?? well, one of them anyways.... who can tell the difference anyways..... also that nite... we went to a famous restaurant which served pied de cochon a.k.a. 'fatt lan sai zhu sau' / 'fatt guok zhu sau' / pig's trotters.... not that all great as it was raved to be.... prefer 'dong poh yuk' as most my friends would already know... the 3rd day... my sis decided to get sick, food poisoning as they call it... probably from those leg things..... so we went for a little shopping then caught the train back to london..... so that was the most time i spent with me mom and sis...

after that... i mostly spent time at home doing courseworks... while my mom and sis are out in london having loads of fun....actually come to think of it.... thank goodness my aunt and uncle are around to take them outing... cos i really didnt have the time to take them out, although i had the whole list planned since they decided to come in march.... so during the weeks that they were here, i was absent in uni for that period cos i think it's a total waste of time to spend 4hours travelling on the train when i get to spend time with them as well as doing some work... staying home was way more practical (well, to my calculations anyway)... at least i get to spend time with them at home, when they're around that is.... it was really great that at nights they usually spend the time at home.... and my mom would cook... i know i know... my mom still has to cook in her trips and stuff lah dee dah... but she wants to cook for her son... i'm can't stop her.... what's a son to do..... anyways it was great to eat my mom's cooking again... not that i don't love my aunt's cooking....

anyway.... so it's the last week they will be here... and i have not spend that much time with them apart from paris and dinners... but do i have a choice? no!! i had to stay home to finish my work... not that i can finish it earlier so i can spend some time with my family....as most of you would know..... i'm stupid.... i take more time than others to finish my work.... so therefore i spent yet the last week with them it the room alone doing work.... if my sis were to see this, she'd say that i lied... well, maybe i did lie a weebit... in that i do sneak out a little (ok....maybe a lot... hehe) to maybe watch the tv with them or something....hehe

so it was the last deadline of my courseworks... i was to hand it in on friday.... and guess what?? friday is the day they are flying off.... so is that bad timing or what?? so they spent loads of money to fly here to see me (at least that's what i like to tell myself...hehe).... and what did i do?? spend less than 23% of their time with them.... so do i feel good they were here.... sure!!.... so do i feel bad that i didnt get to spend as much time with them as i would like to.... definitely!! so do i feel bad for being stupid... might as well!! but it doesnt really matter since i've never been bright anyways....

anyways.... that's that... so i would conclude that this trip was really bad timing though i did manage to spend some short quality time with them, although it would have been much more fun it they came during the summer.... i would also like to conclude that being stupid didnt help either.... hehe...





mom & sis at arche de triomph


me & sis at trocadero with eiffel tower in the background


mom & sis with glass pyramid behind. mona lisa is situated in the building behind the pyramid.


the seafood platter before my sis devoured it.


mom & sis with disney tower behind.


stupid and ugly at the same time, and i dont mean disney tower.


trying to be a star.


being eaten by bruce.


the only pic with 3 of us in it.


the questionable pied de cochon... or legs belonging to pigs.

merci au revoir!!

To the broken hearted,

EVERY LITTLE THING
DELIRIOUS?

Everything must change
There’s a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
But I’ve got nothing to give, just a life to live
If your world is without colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]

There’s no-one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I’ve built my house where the ocean meets the land
It’s time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]

When it’s all falling down on you
You’re crying out but you’re breaking in two
When it’s all crashing down on you
When there’s nothing you can do
There is someone who can carry you

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]


++ Sometimes, everyone just need a little encouragement, just very simple encouragement, by just saying simple words like "Every little thing's gonna be alright." ++

DELIRIOUS?WORLDSERVICETOUR'04

Went for yet another Delirious concert, and this one is called Delirious World Service Tour '04. Venue: Shepherd's Bush Empire @ London. Date: 131004. It was absolutely an amazing concert. Absolutely powerful, and energetic. Best concert I have been since the last Delirious concert. The opening act was by Rock & Roll Worship Circus, which was great as well. Anyways, the atmosphere at Shepherd's Bush Empire was amazing, but yet again, another dissappointment, there were a total of three bar counters, selling alcohol, and there were, yet again people drinking. But thankfully, that was just a very small minority. The rest was absorbing what was the best performance. We were dancing (jumping) to most their songs, and singing along as hard as we could. Their worship songs was as superb as ever, and God's presence was amazing. Wow!! I might just go for another Delirious concert in December, just can't get enough. Brilliant stuff!!


+ the pics were taken using my phone, hence unclear+




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MYPRAYER

Father God,
You have been wonderful to me,
many times I have fallen,
and many times You have been there,
all the times You have lifted me up,
and You have not abandon me,
but instead You have loved me more,
every time I call Your name,
You are there with arms wide open,
to greet me, to listen to me, and to embrace me.

I had gone out to the world,
I had seen the world,
and I had joined the world,
but never once I felt comfort,
never once I felt home to myself,
never once I felt love,
Jesus help me, I am lost,
I have no directions, where am I going?
I am weak, and I feel so frail.
And then I called Your name,
there You are holding me in Your arms,
yet again,
and I felt comfort, I felt home, I felt Your love,
yet again,
I kneel down to You, crying...
Why have I been foolish,
Jesus, why am I not the person that You want me to be.

Oh God,
I pray and I pray,
please forgive me for all my sins,
please Father, give me the strength to change,
I want to change and through You, I know I can,
let me be reminded of You everyday,
let me be reminded of the sufferrings You went through on the cross, for me.
Let me be refreshed with Your love, every single day of my life,
let me love You more and more.

Lord I can feel You, Lord I know You are here with me,
Lord I know You have forgiven me,
Lord I know You have cleansed me,
and I know I am being given yet another chance,
and I will grasp this chance,
and make sure it's my last.

Oh Lord,
I lift up my hands to you,
and I marvel at Your grace.
You are God, and You are King.
You are so beautiful,
beyond words I can ever describe,
Your love is so beautiful.
Father, I pray that You show me my direction in life,
lead me the way, Lord. Show me, guide me.
Oh Jesus, mold me into who You want me to be.

Jesus,
I pray for my parents,
I pray that one day, they will acccept us as we are,
I pray that one day, they will be happy for us,
Father I pray that one day, I will see them rejoicing with You, Lord.
And I know, that one day will come, and in Your time, it will.

Jesus,
I pray for my sister,
God I pray that she will be encouraged,
Lord, let her love for You grow even more,
Father, give her the strength,
that she will one day do great things for You.

Jesus,
I pray for all my friends,
I pray for those who loves You, and calls unto You Lord,
let them love You more everyday,
let their work for You bless Your people,
let them feel Your wonderful love everyday.
Father, I pray for those who has forsaken You,
Jesus, guide them, show them Your love, let them be reminded,
thet there is no love greater than Yours.

Lord,
I would like to thank you, Father,
for even giving me the utmost wonderful family and friends,
Father, bless them O' Lord.

Jesus, You are so beautiful,
Lord, I am so encouraged by You.
Be with me, as I walk this journey,
let me not walk astray again.

I love You, God.

Amen!

ANENDTOANERA

As some of you might already know, it's my last day of work today (hence the theme song on previous post)... and I'm officially a jobless student again... WOOHOO!! and I must say that I am happy that I'll be a student again, and I am beginning to realise how brilliant being a student is. Well, it also depends on what kinda studies you doing, but as for IT students, we do have 3-4 day weeks, which is good, and you just gotta attend lectures, do some assignments and study..... it's that simple.... but of course that's IT.... I don't know about the rest... but I should believe that the real working life is not that simple after all, it's not just about yourself anymore, but the rest of the department...

..............and so I sat there and realised.... I only have one semester left, and then it's officially off to working life... I mean, all my life I have been studying.... from kindergarten to junior high school to high school to college to university... and I have been most comfortable at it, well.... too comfortable that I don't get good grades..... but now, after I finish my last semester... I have to come out to work, come out to live, pay bills and taxes.....

so after the last semester, it will be an end to an era.... and a new one begins, and that's the era of the working life..... but as for now, I am gonna take every advantage to appreaciate what's left of the study era........

FINDTHECOLOUR

Find the colour
Sight and sound
A new exposure comes around
Anaesthetic for the mind
Hear the voice that soothes away the pain

Television, satellite,
Conversation running dry
Sending back another text
Holding on to words you might regret
You know you might regret

[Chorus]
Cause now i can see that i love all the things
That you do with each day
And it feels, SO DAMN GOOD
Every second that passes me by
With the blink of an eye
It just feels, SO DAMN GOOD
Find the colour, find the colour

Looking for something new
A taste of life to pull you through
Defences down your feeling low
A change in feeling comes around againI
ts coming round again

[Chorus]
Cause now i can see that i love all the things
That you do with each day
And it feels, SO DAMN GOOD
Every second that passes me by
With the blink of an eye
It just feels, SO DAMN GOOD

SO DAMN GOOD....

I read the papers yesterday
They say that the bubble boy's ok
Another day of rain to come
We're sitting back still waiting for the sun
Waiting for the sun

[Chorus]
Cause now i can see that i love all the things
That you do with each day
And it feels, SO DAMN GOOD
Every second that passes me by
With the blink of an eye
It just feels, SO DAMN GOOD

Now i see that i love all the things
That you do with each day
And it feels, SO DAMN GOOD
Every second that passes me by
With the blink of an eye
It just feels, SO DAMN GOOD!!!

THETHINGABOUT
lunch,tea,dinner,
supper,dessert&pudding
inUK

some people here calls lunch as lunch and some calls lunch as dinner, but dinner is also used for lunch and also as dinner but some people calls dinner as supper or as tea, and some people also calls lunch as tea and tea as tea,and finally dessert as pudding or dessert and pudding as pudding.

ABOUTMYWORK

I have worked here for 5 weeks now, in a place called Royal Military College of Science, and I have been recommended in here by my relative and he's sort of my supervisor [great bloke btw], anyways I am now working under him, and whatever job he does, i assist him. Well, his title is basically called network support officer, and what he does is making sure the whole networks in this base camp works... and whenever there's new networks to be set up, he'll be in charge of it.....

Well.... about my job.... I am his assistant, and what do I do?? I assist him..... and how do I assist him??? I make him his coffee(s)....... hahaha... joking.... i do more than that..... besides making him coffee, I basically do all the stuff that needs doing of which he doesn't have the time to do it in the first place.... which means that even if it gets done or not doesn't matter.....so therefore, you would then think that my job is really insignificant... which is true.... but do I care?? NO!! And you know why?? That's because I get paid [I feel like a hooker...sigh...]

Anyways... besides the insignificant jobs, I do have some rather important jobs, and that's setting up 200 laptops for some students coming in next semester. Basically, it's setting up their windows, the profiles, their network drives, their outlook as well as making sure they run on wireless... these jobs are rather easy and repetitive, therefore they would need some idiot [yours truly] to do these things up... and they have found the perfect candidate..... moi!!

Sigh!! I only have one more week before I leave this place... and that's 5 days and counting.... Cheers!!

OXFORDSHIRESTORY

I think it's time to update this place.... it has been awhile... and that's because tempat aku tinggal sekarang macam kampung la...takde internet la....itu tempat yang mereka panggil "town" tu.... haih.... dua rows of kedai aje la.... bosannya aku, then transportation mereka itu is rubbish.... tak boleh pergi mana-mana.... kecuali weekend ler.... aku boleh pergi oxford town, yang far better.... itulah yang aku panggil town.......

anyways... some intro about how i ended up in this county called oxfordshire. As i mentioned in the previous post, I had a job and working for some relative, well.... he stays and works here, well, he stays in a place called Carterton (itulah yang aku panggil kampung tu) and works in a college for military....and it's part for the ministry of defence.... cool huh.... and I'm working for him, which makes it cool too.... anyways, about this military base, it's quite cool, with army tanks displayed throughout the base, then there's like a weaponary section, where they experiment on them, and also some science labs, with all these scientist in their white robe thing.... not forgetting the long blackboards full of equations....haha, just like in the movies.... which is cool..... and here comes the uncool part.... yang uncool itu bukannya tempat yang aku kerja la... tapi tempat yang aku tinggal ler...tempat itu, apa pun takde ler.... hanya ada 2 larat kedai.... bosannya.... so orang yang tinggal kat situ kan.... especially orang muda.... semua hanya asyik minum dan fag aje.... that's all they ever do..... so orang yang macam aku pulak... bosanlah.... tak minum, tak fag.... some more, rumah yang aku tinggal tu... takde internet pulak.... so u can't blame me that i don't update this place as much as i'd like to....

**start playing violin, with heavy rain in the background... and not forgetting some thunder**
haih... some more aku tak kenal satu orang ket sini pun, kecuali relative aku, yang asyik minum dan fag juga.... then half the time, aku tak paham paham ape yang mereka cakap tu, so they have to repeat half the time, and when i speak, i have to repeat myself too.... so therefore, i don't even speak.... so in this place, i introduce myself as being dumb.... or spastic.... which is believable... sigh.... how sad is this....

haih.... anyway... my only motivation here is the money i'm earning, though not much in this country, but if i save enough, i can enjoy myself when i go back home to malaysia....

[adalah reason aku cakap melayu ni... tak nak ler certain orang tengok ini, nanti kecil hati pulak... just in case tau...]

the UK story

so here goes the UK story... (it's not really a story, but how i ended up in the UK, and i did not say that it's gonne be interesting)... anyways, i am finishing my IT degree in 3rd year here... (did I mention that I.T. is boring... that's out of the topic, but anyways)... yup... in a university called middleSEX university.... (sorry, I just had to do that)....... ok.... concentrate...... i completed my 1st sem in this country, and another one to go.... and it starts on the 27th Sept... therefore i have almost 1 month left..... i'm living with my aunt in london.
btw.... i am in the midst of what they call a "summer break".... and it's 4 months..... can you imagine that..... 4 months...... which institute/college/uni/school (especially APIIT) in malaysia will give you a break for 4 months?? anyways, i didn't say it's not good.... and i am not complaining....
The 1st month, i was totally enjoying my break, going on holidays, went to paris, south england camping and so on, then the 2nd month i was getting desperate for £££ so started to look for jobs. I submitted at least 15 applications and not a single reply.... how good is that.... anyways, i am lucky enough i have a relative (father's sister's husband's sister's husband) who asked if i wanted a job, and I said YES without considering, so here I am now working with him in oxfordshire. The working place is absolutely cool.... (will write something bout it in next post)... and oxford town is absolute brilliant.
so there u go...... the UK story..... not much of a story is it...... sigh......

the 1st ever post...

what's a post supposed to do anyways.... and will people ever read this..... nah!!! but I am gonna start writting anyways.... I am getting bored around here.... OH! Bytheway, you should probably know that I am in the UK.... wait, this is a long story.... will write it in the next post!!