SECONDLASTEXAM

so i just did my programming exam, and i'm safe to say that i have screwed up my last chance to obtain a first class degree. i have no one to blame except for myself really, i mean i could have so easily selected an easier module or something that i love instead of trying to do something "challenging", or something "good for my future"....blah blah blah, and i chose a programming module over a multimedia module. so i had my programming exam yesterday, and i totally tried my best and all those crap, but sometimes doing your best just isn't good enough, and this module was my last shot in getting a first class degree. sigh!
i would like to state that i have totally learnt so much from this module, and for once in my life, i know what's programming all about and i can actually write programs... but you know what?? so what!! big deal!! your best just isn't good enough. frustrating, really....
but of course it's not the end of the world, i mean when i started my degree here, i really wasn't expecting a first class degree anyway, maybe because i have never done well at anything in my life, so why should this be an exception you know, then one day i just realised... i can actually do this... the way they structure the thing here actually gives me an opportunity to do it... so for my last semester i really tried my best to do well, but obviously just isn't good enough. maybe that's why i'm frustrated, the fact that i could actually do this, but didn't...
oh well... back to being "mr.average at everything i do"....